February 2012
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I just realized
That I’m no longer gonna be able to call him “Virgin” when we get there. Plus I don’t want y’all creeping my sex life so I should probably come up with a new nickname sooner rather than later. Let’s just call him… Dylan.
So my 3 month vow of chastity ends tonight.
I only broke it 4 times. I shouldn’t feel accomplished but I do. It did what I set out for it to do which was avoid unnecessary people who will only make my life more dramatic. Granted, virgin is making life more dramatic but only in a good way and I’m not stressing out about it.
[title of show] tonight...
The cues were perfect.
We had over 100 people in the audience.
Some of my best friends were among them.
The jokes were punched.
Not a line was missed.
I cried at the sad parts.
I cried at the happy parts.
We received a standing ovation.
I cried even more.
People congratulated me.
People are gonna think I’m just overdramatic soon.
I'm actually going to explode by the end of this...
In a good way. Not a bad way. I’ve already cried of happiness 3 times this week and I can only imagine that number going up once Rebecca and Virgin come to see my show tonight, my parents see it tomorrow and it closes tomorrow.
This very well may be the happiest week of my life. It’s like a rollercoaster of hard work, sacrifice and emotion all coming together at once and I just...
The Visitorium Reviews [title of show] →
I got me some props, biotch!
Opening night!!!
OH MAN! After 2 full days of not leaving the friggin theatre from 8/9 AM til 10/10:30 PM for lighting hangs, focuses, set building, crabbing, and general director-y things… we put on a show. It was a good show. Tech broke my heart a little in its crudeness but that’s why it’s a good thing we have 3 shows of this! Tomorrow night I plan on fixing all the small stuff and nailing my...
That little fucker is the sweetest guy I've ever...
We were meeting at my house last night because we were both busy on Valentines Day. We did have a bit of a rough patch the night before because he revealed how he thought I was rushing and I was questioning whether or not he actually cared.
I ran late last night because I was painting the floors for my show (which opens tonight by the way!) and so I felt awful that I kept him waiting outside my...
Well that's a new one
The reason virgin thinks I’m “rushing into things” is because he thinks I’m “so talented, and very smart, and involved with so much” and he doesn’t match up.
How the hell can being talented be a downside to a relationship? Guh.
Good texts
last night was an array of spontaneous Harry Potter themed pickup lines. Today during rehearsal was a random “i miss you. and need to see you soon” merely 2 days after our last date. My heart melted a little when I was being all director-y. All Business Cody has a soft spot this week.
Isn't it sublime
When you go from 0 mutual friends on facebook to almost 200 with someone in only 2 years? That’s a lot of effing mutual friends.
Date 3 with Virgin
There was much cuddling. I needed that.
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Date 2 with Virgin
He was having a shit day, so I surprised him with a cupcake with like 3 inches of icing on it. I visited him at his residence (he’s an RA) and it was an adventure and a half finding the place. It was nice though. We just literally talked for like 2 hours, then made out a bit, then talked for another hour or so, and then spontaneously had a ridiculously passionate makeout. I was completely...
One of the most valuable skills I've learned as a...
Is how to play things by ear. Certainly, it’s important to plan ahead but there’s something important about being confident enough in your vision to just lead with your judgement rather than lead with what you can analyze on paper. You need to be able to roll with the punches and listen to your actors. Be versatile and open to their own ideas and your vision will really come to...
First date with Virgin
He was still sick but trooped it out rather than reschedule twice. I appreciate that.
I was starving afterwards and he was diggity down for McDonalds but he didn’t eat. I ate judgement free. I appreciate that.
We went to see a movie (Man on a Ledge. Pretty good. I recommend it). He paid for the tickets and popcorn. I appreciate that.
I walked him to the bus stop and gave him a goodnight...
I'm literally listening to the biggest bullshit...
The guy who threw a bitch fit for me not casting him in my musical and how nobody casts him is on a phone call with his brother talking about how he thinks he’ll be able to be a Tony award winner and get knighted and all these ridiculous things. And he’s completely serious:
“What makes me so special? It’s me!”
“That’s cause people want to work with me....
January 2012
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The Virgin: Date one - part troix
So the Virgin partied a little too hard this weekend and spent the day vomiting. Normally I’d be upset at a rescheduling especially after being so hesitant to start dating again but it’s a little reassuring when he phrases his text saying “please please PLEASE tell me you’re available some other night this week”. It’s nice to feel like I’m doing someone a...
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Have fun being second choice, biotch!
I could care less if you’re fine being bitter and lonely, just don’t fuck with me and my happiness.
This evening gave me a lot of closure at least. Like the fact that I am indeed attracted to psycotic guys.
That awkward moment...
…where the guy you liked likes the other guy you like but have a date set up with so the first guy lies about saying that he had a date with him too. And then you assume Guy 1 is telling the truth when it seems more likely that Guy 2 was. And then you still have to go on the awkward first date and it’s going to be super awkward now. #gayproblems
Is it conceited
That sometimes after the gym these days, I look in the mirror with no shirt on and hope someone asks me “How the hell are you single?”
I’m pretty sure it is but I’m okay with that.
Well that was interesting.
I was talking to one of my guy friends I’ve been getting along really well with lately tonight at the bar. Turns out he still thought I was straight somehow despite all of my other friends in that circle knowing otherwise. So he was all “seeing any girls lately?” and I was all subtly trying to ease into the shocking revelation “I could tell you but then I’d have to...
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On Dominance and Susceptibility in Queer Culture
I’ve realized that there are certain sociological behaviours I’ve observed in queer culture that I never really thought about until I had to describe them to a straight person. I prefaced the matter with “you have to be gay to understand I guess” and realized that you really do.
In terms of power and role, there are certain things that straight couples never really have to...
So, I took the plunge.
Me and the virgin have a date next week (impossible to friggin schedule anything like I imagined). I am kind of looking forward to it though. With the vow of chastity still in tact, at least I have a reason to not move things too fast. Which will be nice for a change.
But regardless of my last post,
I feel like this weekend just sort of helped re-build my life.
I finally got the landlord to call a fumigator who’s currently spraying down the house (as I type this!) so no more little critter-y friends will be crawling around and I can no longer be ashamed to live here.
We finally found a pianist for our musical so no more dreading every passing day thinking my show will be a flop.
We...
I realize I may have just fucked up.
Is it even possible to blame a fuck-up on a vow of chastity? Regardless, it made me a tad too stand-offish and now I’m kind of regretting it. I was just about to get a good thing going too. We’ll see where the next few weeks can take me I suppose. Spare time, you are my virtue.